.... I want Him, I need Him...

I want to post something here. I want to tell the world that I'm not definitely fine. I want to cry and ask for His help to give me the courage to obey Him. My spirit is willing but my flesh is weak. :( I want to tell God that I am so sorry for not being an obedient daughter. I know He wanted me to surrender everything to Him yet I know that I am holding back. I want Him to fight for me, and not the other way around. I need His grace and I need His presence everyday of my life. I cannot live apart from Him. I know that I cannot do without Him in my life. I need Him. I need His living water to overflow in my life. I want Him to use me in every way to bring glory in His name. I will always hold on to His promises despite what is happening right now. He who began a good work in me will put it into completion, and I will claim that promise. I need to write this in order for me to understand that despite the current situation, I will always desire Him in my life. He alone satisfies my soul.