Awesome Single Life

Its been awhile since my last relationship. It didn’t work as I imagined it to be. But this doesn’t mean that life is over for me. In fact, I enjoy being by myself. No commitment, no worries. But wait, this doesn’t imply that I am now a man hater. In fact, my last relationship ended well. I mean, there was pain when we parted and I literally cried, but it’s good thing to know that we are still friends.

However, I cannot deny the fact that I am still asking if I can have the relationship that I want, If I can still have those magical moments to loved and be loved. I am still a person who can still sense those feelings and who really wanted to have it. So, when I tend to be overexcited to meet the right person, God keeps reminding me to be still and wait. He keeps telling me to enjoy and cherish what I have right now for this is the right season for me, the season to be single.

But what it means to really be a single? Is it just not having a commitment with the opposite sex? Or Is it engaging on series of flings and date without having an obligation? I guess it is not. For me, to be single means to enjoy your being and to cherish yourself. This is the time for you to reflect on what you want. And also,  to do things you cannot do when you are committed; because seriously, there are lot of things you cannot do for some reason when you are not single. 

Since my last relationship, there are so many awesome things happened in my life. I connect with my old friends and welcome new friends. I accept new opportunities for my career. I explore new sports. I sing like no one is listening and dance like no one is watching. I find time to enrich my artistic self. I set adventurous activities with friends. I plan to travel.  And lastly, I rekindle my passion in writing.

Then I realize that while waiting for that right person, this season is meant to be enjoyed. So, as I continue to move on, I can say that what happened with my previous relationship is God’s grace after all. Because, Indeed, I am enjoying this awesome single life.


So, here's to the poem I just made. hehe. :)

Excited to see,

-healthmoneysuccess.com

    Eager to know,

I know you’re real,

   I know you’re there.

As I look upon the sky,

   The stars keep telling me,

That you will come,

   As I wait patiently.

Sometimes I fear

   That you might not arrive,

But God keeps reminding me,

   That the right time will come.

As I wait for that moment,

   I will enjoy this season,

To cherish and delight,

   This awesome single life.

What is GRACE?

It is said to be undeserved love.

But how would you really know if it was grace? All the while, I thought the hard times I am going through, which is so painful, is considered a consequence of my disobedience to God. But now it seems that it is God’s grace for me.

After reading a chapter of a book which is Love beyond Reason by John Ortberg, my eyes was opened to the truth that the things happening in my life today is God’s grace after all. John Ortberg explained that grace is something happened to us that draws us to God Himself. And I believe that it is exactly what is happening to me now.

My situation is a blessing from God, it is undeserved love given to me for free, and it is His grace. Indeed, Paul is right when he wrote the Epistle of Corinthians, His grace is sufficient for us and His power is made perfect in our weaknesses. May we experience God's grace for us whatever our season is. :) 

A Bothering Thought

Something is bothering me today.

I woke up very early this morning with a thought of giving it a try to work again in Manila. I don’t know why it is so sudden to feel this again when my plan is to stay here for awhile. To quit in my work and find a new job is a thought that bothers me again and again and it seems that it will continue to bother me unless I try. 

So, in order for me to understand what I am going through, I made a simple analysis of my problem. 

Why should I quit?

It seems that I do not belong in this organization. I tried to be happy in my workplace but at the end of the day, there is emptiness in my work. I am not satisfied; there is no sense of fulfillment.

Then, why I am staying?

If not for the current problem in my family, I won’t be staying in this work anymore. I know that it is the only reason why I am not still resigning in my current job.

So, what can I do?

I can pray. I can ask God to lead and guide me and give me opportunities to showcase the skills and talents He has given me.  I believe that He doesn't give me these skills if He doesn't want me to use it.  Besides, He wants me to be a good steward of the things He has given me.

But will I just pray and wait for God to give me a new work or opportunity? I think not, He wants me to do something.  He wants me to excel in the work He is giving me today while waiting. And He wants me to open my eyes to new career and opportunities outside my work because if He really wants me to go out from what I am doing now, He will provide. 

So instead of trying to acknowledge the thought that bothers me, Why not trust God for everything. If I believe He is Sovereign, then I must have faith in Him. I should have faith that all things are happening according to His plan. 

February

They say that February is the month of love. And this is because Valentines Day falls on February 14. Lovers usually find time to date on that day. The city will be painted with  roses, chocolates and hearts again.

As for my case, I don't have a date this year. Not that I usually date on that day but because I really don't celebrate it with someone whom I don't love. As far as I can remember, I celebrate it alone or with friends and not usually on February 14.

2008 - With Es, Lance and Jaypee at Trinoma
2009 - UP Fair with IE Friends TM
2010 - Watch APO Concert with Jo and Yes, Date with Ate Sharon
2011 - Apartment (my ex, who is just courting me at that time asked me but I didn't go)

As for this year, I should be celebrating a pre-valentine date with my friends, Krysteen and Herman, this week-end at Samal Island, Davao. Unfortunately, my bestfriend Krysteen cannot make it because of her exam on Sunday. So, we decided to cancel it.

But this doesn't mean that I won't be doing extra special this valentines day. I am planning to treat my family, maybe we can have that candle light dinner again in our house. Besides, they are the most special people in my life. :)

LIVING IN THE PRESENT

If you are depressed, you are living in the past. If you are anxious, you are living in the future. If you are at peace, you are living in the present. – This is the quote I’ve read in my google plus lately.

For the past years, I have allowed myself being depressed and anxious. And all along, I’ve became the person I hated most.  I worry a lot and eventually hurt the people I love.  And since this is not the life I imagined to be, I made a move three weeks ago. I have consecrated before the Lord and asked Him to remove all the things that hinder me in knowing Him. Eventually, one by one, He emptied my cup and took away all unnecessary things in my life until nothing is left. After which, He had poured Himself into my cup that all the things I can see, hear, and sense is only Him.

That no matter how painful it is; it is Him who comforts.

That no matter how much darkness surrounds me; all I can see is His light.

That no matter how many battles I am going through; it is Him who is fighting.

Regardless of the circumstances I am facing, all I have right now is peace because I put my trust in the Lord. I know that I will live a victorious life as long as I put my faith in Him.

So, in order for us to live in the present, we have to put our trust to the only one who can be trusted, our Lord Jesus Christ. 

MOVING ON ACTIVITIES

I woke up around 3 in the morning. After an hour, I can’t sleep so I grab my notebook and pen to write this.

It has been two weeks since the break up. I already asked God to heal me and forgive the person who caused me to cry and have these sleepless nights. And since I decided to let go of him and move on with my life, I make sure to be busy in order to forget him. These are the activities which helps me to recover immediately.

RECONNECT WITH FAMILY AND FRIENDS

I never thought how busy I was with my boyfriend that I almost had no time with my family and friends. After the break up, I realized that I missed my old friends and my family. I bond with them almost every time when I’m free.

MOVIE MARATHON

Last weekend, I find nothing to do, so I decided to just watch movies in one of the channels offered by our local cable provider. I enjoyed watching 7 movies with my brother in just a day.

TREAT MYSELF WITH SWEETS

They said that chocolate is anti-depressant. But that was not really my intention when I bought my favorite mini-cakes at Aunt Ludi’s last week. It just happened that I crave for their delicious cakes.

NEW HAIR
I was planning to redo my hair before the break up but wasn’t able to do so because of a busy schedule. But because I now have a lot of free time, I was able to do it. A friend of mine told me that having a new look after what happened will make me optimistic on having a new life; I’m not sure with this but still it’s always a nice feeling to get your hair done.

REKINDLE MY PASSION TO DRAW

I am not an artist but I remember how much I love to draw. So, I borrowed the color and pen from my sister and draw the following:

       MAKE NEW FRIENDS

 In just two weeks time, I was able to meet and be close with great people. I had a wonderful time to chat with my new friends every time I’m bored. Thanks for listening friends.

Those activities seem to be ordinary but help me a lot in my “moving on” goal. I believe that doing those things is a good sign for me to start a happy, lovely and new life.