I FINALLY FOUND THE LOVE OF A LIFETIME

You said this song is dedicated for me but how come the lyrics are just plain words; it just doesn't make sense to me at all.  Why there is an unanswered question raised in every phrase?

I guess the time was right for us to say
We'd take our time and live our lives together day by day
We'll make a wish and send it on a prayer
We know our dreams can all come true with love that we can share

When you told me that you hope that we could spend our life together, Is it just a lie?

Since our dreams didn't come true, So does it mean that it's not love after all?

With you I never wonder - will you be there for me
With you I never wonder - you're the right one for me

I was there for you from the very start, I fight for it but you easily gave up. If I am the right one for you, then why do I cry whenever I think that we can't be together anymore?

I finally found the love of a lifetime
A love to last my whole life through
I finally found the love of a lifetime
Forever in my heart, I finally found the love of a lifetime

Did I just assume that it’s me the love of your lifetime which is the reason why I was hurt when you've decided to leave me?

With every kiss our love is like brand-new
And every star up in the sky was made for me and you
Still we both know that the road is long
(But) we know that we will be together because our love is strong

If our love is strong, then why we didn't end up together?

Those are the questions I wanted to ask but I cannot; because I know that you wouldn't answer. Maybe, I will only know the truth behind these queries on the day that I can say that "I finally found the love of my lifetime". 

A Destiny or A Choice

To meet someone is not a choice, it is a destiny. To let him stay in my life is my choice and to let me stay in his life is his choice. But for us to work together is our choice. We need destiny for us to meet. We need two choices for us to stick together until the end.

But it only needs one vote from each one of us for a relationship to break apart. If he chooses to give up, the relationship won't work. If I choose to give up, there will be no more us.

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So for us to meet and find our true love requires both destiny and a choice. Three things are needed and out of it, only one thing lies in my hands. I cannot control the destiny nor the choice of that person. My power is limited to my own choice.

This is the reason why others have a difficulty in meeting the right person for them because no matter how they would try nor they want it, if only one condition won't be met, it won't work. This is why falling in love with the right person and keeping the relationship work is rare and precious that should be treasured by each one. 

When we have given a chance to meet a person that might be destined for us, do not give up too easily and fight for the relationship to work. Who knows he might be the one for us. But if no matter how hard we fight and it is still not working, just let go because he might not be the one. Always remember that if he is the right person for us, the destiny will make a way for you to be together again and if he is not the one, remind yourself that the destiny will give you the right person in its own time. 

SAYING GOODBYE

Since I am young, I always find it hard to say good bye. I remember how it made me feel blue when my mother told me that we will be transferring our home. As a child, the news is heartbreaking because I am not ready to leave our house and my friends. It has been almost 20 years since then and yet I still find it difficult to say good bye.

To say goodbye means people are going in separate ways. Some choose to stay and others choose to go. Whatever we choose, we will always be bidding farewell to some things. Maybe we have to leave our old habits, some places or our loved ones because we need to move on.

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When we leave them, we cannot hide the fact that there is pain in there. But we need to do it or else we will be stuck into the same situation for the rest of our lives. There will be no growth if we continue to go back from the past. For a teenager, he would need to say goodbye to his childhood. For a young adult, he would need to say good bye to his teenage life. For a newly wed couple, they need to say goodbye to their single life. You see, saying goodbye is a natural thing in this world.

At first, it will be very difficult to say goodbye. But once we understand that saying goodbye is just natural in this world, it will be a lot easier to accept that there are things that we need to leave behind in order for us to keep going. We have to face each day with readiness in our hearts the possibility of saying goodbye to someone or something.

If I have fully understand that saying goodbye is just natural in this world as the sun rises and sets every day, maybe saying goodbye won’t be as painful as I am experiencing today. Since I already know this, I hope that I would be courageous to say it once there is a need to say it.  Saying goodbye won’t be easy but I have to understand that it is a gift because it would give me the opportunity to say hello to something new.

IF YOU EVER COME BACK

As I am trying to find the lyrics of Call Me Maybe by Carly Rae Jepsen at the internet, I have stumbled upon the song If You Ever Come Back by The Script. I haven't heard the song and I wasn't able to understand the lyrics, but a thought came upon my mind. I ask myself what should I do if ever you will come back in my life?



I know that you will never come back but if you ever come back, 

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I want to tell you.... 
how you've hurt my feelings when you left.
that I want to get over you but I find it hard.
that I am so thankful that you've come into my life which made me realize that I have the capacity to love.


I want you to know...
that I can manage to smile and be happy without you even if there are moments that I cried because I miss you.
that I can set you free if this is what you want.
that I wish you happiness in your life even without me.


I want to give you...
a hug because I miss you so much.
a smile because I want you to know that I am happy, not because of you coming back but because I know that you made me realize that I can handle the pain you've caused me.
a laughter because I can now laugh over the things that happened between us.


And lastly, I want to say in kind words that maybe this is not yet the right time for us to be together again. Maybe in other time, but not now and not today because there are still things I need to do on my own. It doesn't mean that I don't love you, don't get me wrong, as much as I want you to love me and love you, this time is not yet the right time because I am not sure if my heart is ready to love someone who've hurt it before. 


So, if you ever come back, I'll be glad to know that you still want me but I'll be sorry to tell you that I am not yet ready this time.

A Battle Against God

When God says NO and you are still insisting that it is YES. Is it a familiar situation? This is a situation where we battle against the will of God.

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 All of us at one point of our lives battle against His will. No matter how close we are with Him, there are still instances that we try to fight against Him. For some it might be a battle over their own lives and for others, only a battle over an area of their lives.

As for me, I know that I had a battle against the Lord for almost four months now over one specific area in my life. And no matter how I tried to win, I end up losing the fight all over again. I cried all night because I cannot accept the fact that what I want doesn’t happen and will never happen. Tears always flow from my eyes whenever I tried to think about what happened in this specific area. My heart always aches every time I insist with Him that the answer to my question should be YES.  

For four months, I am in pain because of this battle until one day; I realized that what I am doing is meaningless. When I asked Him to take away all the things that shouldn’t be there in my life, He already made a way in order for Him to hold this area. But I have never seen the truth that from the very beginning, He keeps telling me that He wants to be in control in this area of my life. But I never listened to him for four months. Instead, I keep insisting on my will and not on His. It hurts me so much because I realized that all along I am trying to hide this area away from Him. It breaks my heart as I recognized how I break His heart as I stubbornly battle against Him. I was in pain for four months because I was battling against Him. It’s hard to admit but my pain is caused by my own stubbornness and disobedience.

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So today, I made a decision to surrender this specific area of my life. I let Him hold it so that He can control it.  Letting go will not be easy for me but I pray that He would give me courage to do it. If this is His will for my life, His grace will be sufficient for me because His power is made perfect in my weakness. This time, I am no longer battling against Him. Instead, I battle with Him because a battle with Him will always be a victory in our lives.

MAY: THE BUSIEST MONTH SO FAR

So, I wasn’t able to post in my blog for the past weeks. What does it mean? Yes, it only means I am quite busy doing something.  God indeed answers my question to give me something to be busy at. Here are the things I did during my idleness in my blog.

Donated a blood to a stranger. It was my first time to donate a blood and I have donated it to someone who gets an abortion. The moment I decided that I am going to give my precious blood to this woman, I ask myself if saving her will be worth it. Then I realized that if Jesus is in my position, surely He will give another chance to this woman. Also, if I am in her position, I seriously wanted that someone would still give me another chance. So, before I finally donated my blood, I whispered a prayer that the Lord will touch the heart of that woman as how He touched my heart and saved me from my sins.

Attended the Supervisory skills training. Listening for two days straight in a seminar is entirely tiresome. Although I'm just in my seat the whole time, the training is dreary. But it doesn't mean I haven't learned anything there, in fact I gain so much that it seems to be an information overload. But since the start of this training, there is so much pending works back in the office that I have to bring home some of the tasks.

Acted as a guest relation officer for three days. It was never stated in my job function to make our guests comfortable while with us. But because I am part of the project with our visitors, I have to be nice with them. I never thought how tiring it is to be hospitable. 

Facilitated two events in two consecutive weeks and in two different places. As part of the Planning Department, I have to do these stuffs and it is exhausting especially if it is very difficult to ask for help from other people. But the hardest part is when no one is directing you on what you have to do. 

Obviously, three out of four things mentioned above is because of my work. I can’t even remember the other things I did last May because of the activities set in our office. Indeed, May is my busiest month so far.