Saturday, April 12, 2014

Tonight I remember

Tonight before I sleep I think of you, Tomorrow as I wake up I will still be thinking of you. You seem to keep running in my mind. You are thousand miles away from me but you made my heart skip a bit everytime I remember you. You made a special connection between my mind and heart that no one can ever replace. I am very much happy and glad and grateful and in awesomeness because God allowed you to be the most special person in my life.

Tonight, I remember the first day I saw you at the airport. I remember the second time I saw you at the coop canteen where my mind is hoping that you could remember me. I remember your first words at the gym telling me to smile and how my heart shouted in joy because you talked to me. I remember the time you added me as your facebook friend. I remember how you got my number and you treated me with pakwan and durian. I remember how you send good nights and good mornings without me replying it, thinking that it is a group text. I remember our first text conversation when I asked help from you on how to teach at the university. I remember the first night we went out together to buy ice cream in a cold rainy night and eat it at our terrace where our real conversation took place. It was the first time we tell stories of ourselves, or maybe more of yourself and I know that time that we clicked and that was the time that series of dates came between us. I remember the day I told you that we stop dating because I think you are just playing around my feelings that eventually I realized that I cannot just let you go because of that assumption and that is why I tried to win you back again. I thank God that I fight for you at that time. I remember our first prayer together that seems an angel came and whispered that it is you whom God sent for me. I remember how much you love me back then and how much it becomes stronger throughout time and through the distance. 

I might be a forgetful person but I never forget those beautiful memories that we have for it is not kept in my mind but it is kept in my heart. Those memories are not hidden in mind that I can forget so easily, for those memories are hidden in my heart and is cherished forever. 

Tonight, I remember you holding my hand saying that you love  me and that a promise has been made between us that it will be us forever. Tonight, I thought of you and remember how beautiful it is to love you with all that I have. 

As we grow old, I dont want to forget the spark and magic of being in love with you. I write this at my blog so that when the time comes I might forget, when I grow old,  I will ask our grandchildren to read this entry so that I can still go back to how beautiful it is to be in love with you. My mind might get old and might forget but my heart will always remember. 


So tonight I pray that every night, I will always remember you and your love for me. Thank you for the love and for everything. I will always love you.

Friday, April 11, 2014

Becoming Closer to God

This holy week, I am tasked to give atleast a five minute talk to give some spiritual tips for my co employees. I search in the internet and I found series of things on how to become closer to God. I already made my powerpoint presentation on it. Until this day, I got to open and read my regular e-newsletter from Derek Prince.

The letter is all about the thing Jesus did on the cross to save us, to save me even if I am the only person left. Jesus endured the cross and he patiently take everything because it sets before him the joy once he overcome. And that joy is me and you, the joy of spending eternity with us. 

The message is clear that the first thing that we can become closer to Him is not simply reading the bible, going to church and do some religious stuff. I am not saying that it is wrong to do it, but what I am saying is that to become closer to Him, we must open our hearts to that joy, we must open open ourselves to a relationship with Jesus. We must want to have a relationship with Him before we can be close to Him. And this is the best and the most important tip that I can give to my co employees on Monday. Because once they opened their hearts to Jesus, everything will just go into the right place as we continue to pray, read His word and do the things Jesus likes.

To become closer to God, we need to receive Him with all our hearts and mind.