Is it a Love at First Sight?

“I think that perhaps we always fall in love the very instant we see the man of our dreams, even though, at the time, reason may be telling us otherwise, and we may fight against that instinct, hoping against hope that we won’t win, until there comes a point when we allow ourselves to be vanquished by our feelings.” – Paulo Coehlo, Eleven Minutes

I am just struck with this quote by Paulo Coehlo. As I read this once again, I realize that this is true to me. Because when I first saw him, I literally told myself that I won’t be in love with this man.

It was in the airport when I first saw him while he is talking to my friend. As I look upon him, I think instantly that I won’t allow myself to be in love with him. The moment I think of it, it seems something inside me is telling that I will like him, that I will be in love with him in the future.

I tried to hide it, I tried not to think about it. But I keep seeing him that I seem to be addicted of his presence. I keep on looking at him in places where I know I could see him. I keep on hoping that one day he will recognize me, that he will talk to me.

Until one day, a miracle happened when I got my opportunity to talk to him. He might be mesmerized on how I speak to everybody during a convocation, thus he first uttered the words “smile” at me. And that day seems to be one of the best days of my life. The smile in my face is unforgettable that I could always remember the feeling until today.

Days and weeks passed, he asked for my number. He began texting me. I did not mind it at first until one day I give up and keep on replying to his messages. And we go out on our first date where we ate ice cream in a cold and rainy night. Series of dates came, and little did I know that I am obsessed to be with him, that every moment spent with him is special. 

Until one day, I just allowed myself to be vanquished by my feelings for him. And when the night we first prayed, I know that he is the man that I am going to marry. I love him and I want to build a future with him.

And now that I am engaged with him, I keep on asking myself when was the point that I began to love him. Do you think it is a love at first sight? Well, I think it doesn't really matter now, what matters now is that I have a life time to spend it with him and I am happy.