A Bothering Thought

Something is bothering me today.

I woke up very early this morning with a thought of giving it a try to work again in Manila. I don’t know why it is so sudden to feel this again when my plan is to stay here for awhile. To quit in my work and find a new job is a thought that bothers me again and again and it seems that it will continue to bother me unless I try. 

So, in order for me to understand what I am going through, I made a simple analysis of my problem. 

Why should I quit?

It seems that I do not belong in this organization. I tried to be happy in my workplace but at the end of the day, there is emptiness in my work. I am not satisfied; there is no sense of fulfillment.

Then, why I am staying?

If not for the current problem in my family, I won’t be staying in this work anymore. I know that it is the only reason why I am not still resigning in my current job.

So, what can I do?

I can pray. I can ask God to lead and guide me and give me opportunities to showcase the skills and talents He has given me.  I believe that He doesn't give me these skills if He doesn't want me to use it.  Besides, He wants me to be a good steward of the things He has given me.

But will I just pray and wait for God to give me a new work or opportunity? I think not, He wants me to do something.  He wants me to excel in the work He is giving me today while waiting. And He wants me to open my eyes to new career and opportunities outside my work because if He really wants me to go out from what I am doing now, He will provide. 

So instead of trying to acknowledge the thought that bothers me, Why not trust God for everything. If I believe He is Sovereign, then I must have faith in Him. I should have faith that all things are happening according to His plan.