Dear You...

Dear You,

I know that I cannot tell you anymore any of these. So, Instead of trying to keep it with myself, I'd rather write it here. You know what....

I wanna be friends with you, I wanna know how are you but it hurts me whenever I see you with other woman.

I wanna hate you, like not talk to you for the rest of my life. But I don't want hatred to rule my life.

I wanna love you, like kiss and hug you. But I don't want to feel rejection because I know that you don't want me that way anymore.

I wanna forget you. Forget to the level I won't remember your name anymore. But I cannot teach my heart nor mind to do that. Unless I will let myself suffer from amnesia which I don't want to.Because If I will, I will also erase my precious memories with you which I don't want to do. 

Now, tell me what should I do with all of my feelings for you? Because I am like a crazy young woman who still loves you despite everything. 

I really hope that through writing these, I might be able to cope up with my life and really move on with it even if you're not with me anymore. 

                                                                                                          Love,
                                                                                                          Me