Boasting God

Despite all the adversity we might face in life, God’s grace is still present, and no matter what we’ve done he can still use us to demonstrate His glory. - Ryan Duncan, Crosswalk Devotional

My heart has been touched upon reading the above words in my quiet time today. I know that I've sinned against the Lord and despite of me knowing the truth, I still stumbled upon  a temptation which causes my soul to cry. I know that somehow a part of my decisions before causes where my life is today. I admit that I don’t have a life that pleases Him and I am sorry. If there is a point in my life that I can say that I am not worthy to be called as His princess, then it is this moment.

I don’t want to elaborate every sin I have committed against Him but I just want to speak that despite everything that happened and is happening today, I know that His grace is there. Today, I can attest the words from 2 Corinthians 12:9; Indeed, His grace is sufficient and His power is made perfect in my weaknesses.  I am not boasting of my sins here, rather I am boasting God here. Through my weaknesses, I know that His power will rest on me.

I once tried to do my best; to be the perfect Christian model but I am weak and I have failed to do it. I have done things that I ought not to do. I disobeyed the Lord and I am truly sorry for it. I wish I could go back to the past and not do those things but I have done it and I am sorry about it. Because of it, I want to run away again from the Lord, but He is faithful to His promises that He who begins a good work in me will put it into completion for He made me read the above words from my devotional. Upon meditating on it, I know that I don’t need to run away because He is perfectly waiting for me to ask for forgiveness because no matter what I've done, He can still use me to demonstrate His glory.

And I am here again, kneeling down before the Lord, asking for His grace to save me from my fall. I know that He has forgiven me two thousand years ago by sending His son Jesus Christ in the cross. I want to thank Him for everything He did in order for me to be right with Him once again. I want to quote here what Oswald Chamber once said:

“We are not meant to be seen as God’s perfect, bright shining examples, but to be seen as the everyday essence of ordinary life exhibiting the miracle of His grace.”

Yes, I don’t want to pressure myself to be perfect or to be a bright shining example anymore. Instead, I want to exhibit His grace in my life. On my own, I cannot achieve perfection or righteousness before God, I need Him to do it.

Through this post, I want people to realize that we cannot be perfect in this world unless we have God in our lives.