The process of letting go of my comfort zone

And now, I am questioning my purpose. The series in the church today is unwavering where it is all about faith.

I’ve been working in an electric distribution utility for the past seven years and all I thought this is and this will be where I am working for the rest of my life. But just this year, there are so many mountains to overcome in my workplace, so much stress is coming that sometimes I forgot to reflect my purpose. I ponder on resigning from work.

Recently, I’ve been connected to a group of people who has the same belief as mine, and I am on fire with God again. I began to see God’s grace that the word “resign” doesn’t cross my mind anymore. But yesterday, when everything is so fine, no problem nor worries exist in my working place, the thought came again. Just also yesterday, after the said thought, I began to talk to someone and told me her plans of going out because she feels that her purpose is not in here. I am very much encouraged on how God orchestrated everything for her despite her age and her current situation.

During the conversation, I evaluated myself and a realization came. This is not the place for me and my time here is already enough. It is not the problems in the office that I want to resign, it is because I fear that if I will go, every comforts that I am receiving right now will be lost. And I am afraid. I fear that I cannot have this comfortable life anymore where I am the boss and there are so many privileges for me. I am afraid that if I lose the job, it will be very hard for my family to survive. Then a word came to me. God told me to have courage and to let go of my fears. He wants me to have faith in Him as I leave my comfort zone because He will show me my promise land.

I began to discuss this to my husband, and he just affirm my decision to let go. He told me that in order for me to have much bigger, I have to empty my hands. And I cried because it is the truth and I am still afraid to do it. 

Today, as I write this, I know that I am just buying time for me to let go of my comfort zone. I know that it is a process to let go and I pray to God that if this is really His purpose for me, He will show me the way. He will affirm this through prayer, through His words, through vision and through my mentors in Christ. Just today, my devotions is also about choosing faith over fear. May the Lord help me through this process of choosing faith, instead of fear. I believe that as I let go of my comfort zone, He will prepare a way for me for everything. May God gives me all the things I need as I take my journey to an unknown place where He called me to be. Praise be to God forever!