In the middle of the busy crowd

Being alone in the middle of a busy crowd seems to be a nostalgia for some. But for me, I feel that was the best part that happened to me that night.

It is in the middle of the night when I choose to leave the group and go home. As I walked towards my car, those minutes while I am walking alone in the middle of the busy crowd, I feel the person I am.

People around me are partying. They are both singing and listening to the band that is playing along the streets of Alunan Avenue. People are drinking liquor, some are busy consuming it with a cigarette in their hands. Some men and women flirt with each other, some couple are holding their hands while walking. There are others that they bring their families with them just to enjoy the festival. Vendors are also busy selling the items in their hands. And there are also some who is just like me, walking alone, going somewhere to wander and be part of the event.

While experiencing all of these things, I feel so much of myself. My mind and my heart is telling me that I am happy despite the loudliness of music and the craziness of people around me. Being alone in the middle of the crowd is not at all a melancholy, instead it brought a positive effect in me.

I thought I can only achieve the said feeling when I am just alone in my room. But it is exactly the opposite of it; it is in the middle of the busy crowd where I can pause and stop, where I can prove that sometimes we don’t need to be alone just to contemplate on things, and that sometimes we need to observe the people around us to appreciate who we are.

Because at that moment, while I am walking in the middle of the crowd, I realized that I am no longer the person who I am five years ago, and that I am already a changed person. At that time, I accepted that there are things that we cannot change and we need to accept all the changes it brought to us even if it is us who changes throughout time.

And it is in the middle of the busy crowd where I learn to accept all of these things.