RUNNING IN CIRCLES

There are times that I thought I live according to His purpose but when I reflect on what I am doing and where I am right now, I know that I am not. I have done things against His will and I didn’t do the things that I ought to do.

And this might be the reason why I’m running in circles right now. I don’t know where I should suppose to go. I am confused in my life that sometimes I feel so restless because I over think so much of what is happening to me. It seems that I am those Israelites whom Moses bought out from Egypt. I am in my wilderness because I’ve been thinking and doing my own instead of His way.  I know God doesn’t want me to do this and I don’t want to do it also. I don’t want my way, I want His way but whenever I am in the place where I am tested, I easily give up. And I hate myself for it. I hate it because no matter how I try, I am still failing Him. I hate it because I know that I have displeased the One who loves me most and I am sorry for it.

Just this morning, I am glad that I have stumbled upon His word in Corinthians.

No temptation has overtaken you except what is common to mankind. And God is faithful; he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, he will also provide a way out so that you can handle it. -1 Corinthians 10:13

As I read and reflect it, it gives me power to overcome everything. It has helped me go back from the start when I first believe.  His death in the cross has given me freedom from sin. His grace is sufficient for me and His power is made perfect in my weakness. I know that He will provide a way out for me so that I can handle it. I need Him, I need His power for me to overcome and be victorious in life. I will never lose hope because I know my God is faithful and He will provide a way out for me. With conviction, I know that He will. I am confident that whatever he started, He will put it in completion. I am His daughter through His Son Jesus Christ, and I desire to live according to His purpose.

Maybe I am running in circles right now. But with constant prayer and faith in Him, He will let me arrive in my promise land someday. I know that He will for He is faithful.